Fighting the Storm
The weeks are flying by like cars on a crowded racetrack. You lay down its Monday, and wake up, it’s Friday. It seems like 2020 has been applying pressure since January, and we are caught out here trying to loosen ourselves from the collective grasp of the events that have seemed to hit over and over again like waves crashing repeatedly against an icy shoreline. I don’t know about you, but I am exhausted. I thought I was tired when I transitioned home to a full-time employee and full-time caretaker of my two kids with my husband. But I realize that this type of fatigue I am feeling cuts deeper. It feels different from anything I have ever seen.
The compilation of the collective events in the world has left me feeling like an injured bird, flailing its wings trying to escape from the eye of an unraveling storm. And as the wind picks up, I flap my wings in desperation trying to escape from its grasp. I realize that in my own lack of strength, I am being sucked into the vortex of the storm. And as I look around for help, for a steadying force, I extend my hand unsure of what I will find. And so I reach, hopeful, prayerful, yearning to find….Wait- what is that? I feel it! I feel the strength of my bones being held up by an impenetrable force. I hear a still, small voice, comforting me, pulling me closer, ever so gently and whispering in my ear that everything is going to be ok. And the rhythmic drumming in my heart calms to a gentle hum and I realize that the life-giving energy steadying me in this moment, in the midst of this horrendous storm is none other than the Holy Spirit. Calling me to enter into a deeper place of rest (Hebrews 4). So I enter, deliberately, but assuredly into a place of complete silence. A place where stillness washes over me like the dawn of a new day. And so I rest…I reflect…. and I release the cares of this world. My bones are becoming stronger. Look-my strength is returning back to me. And I realize in this precious moment, that everything will be ok. It will truly be ok. Selah!